What we believe matters.

In math and physics, in love and war, we must decide where we will start. We make an educated guess from this place and do the work to verify that we were right to do this.

Matter, everything around and that is us, exists in different states. The same substance can move through different phases, but it is always the thing it is.

Every Monday morning, I send out a missive in my storytelling series, Hope You’re Well. I started writing it in 2014, and paused somewhere thereafter for a few years while I took long drives and made bad and good decisions and forgot to write anything down and remembered to write a lot of things down and wore a headlamp, and a silk dress one time, at least one time, and wrung my hands and dealt with impossible possible things, and generally lived a life.

The stories are told through mathematical equations, carefully worded advice and flash fiction.

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Hope you’re … well, you know.

stretch goal

Last week I got into a conversation about how yoga was different from weight lifting. An obvious conversation, a conversation where there could be no disagreement. But—because there is always a but—we disagreed on how to measure progress. I hate progress. I hate that it’s always presented as a straight line, one thing leading to the next, as if its measurers have never heard of life or people or progress.

You see, she said, it’s easier to measure it in weight-lifting because you can see the numbers go up. Whereas, with yoga, there’s no easy way to see if you’re getting better.

I never feel like I’m coming to the same conclusions as everyone else. I never feel like we’re starting in the same place.

When my mom died, I went to the library and checked out books. I read memoirs by girls younger than me, girls who made mistake after mistake after mistake, whose writing of their memoirs was meant to indicate that they had learned something. I read famous memoirs about unparalleled tragedy (is there any other?), about unspeakable grief spoken. I read poetry books and poems, and advice columns, and I thought, “How?” and “Why us?”

I spend a lot of time moving slowly, I spend a lot of time practicing.

In reading, I was looking for the thing that made us all similar. I was looking for the things we did wrong in our early youth, our college years, our adulthood, our somewhere. I was looking at the ferocity with which we loved, how that maybe set us up for loss. Maybe less was better? Or, maybe the love was supposed to be the only thing. Maybe if our lives had revolved around them things would have been different. Or, maybe if we had been more independent the world could have handled us both forever?

I would not look at the obvious idea that you know that I know, the one where there is only forward, that the past is only what has passed and there’s no explanation except the present, except now. Somehow, it’s always only now.

So, yoga.

There is no mediated progress. There is no final pin to move, no four-minute mile letting you know you have arrived. There is only arriving: reaching your hands up and acknowledging, with your body, that there is space, more space, that there has always been more space. There is no next level. That’s the point. Every moment you are there you are there. X marks the spot. You Are Here. Every day you show up you are remembering how gigantic you really are.

good mornings

If you need more magic, go to the mountains. Drive too fast and get to 9,000 feet. At midnight, bundle yourself in everything you own, or at least the part of it that you were able to hastily throw into a bag at 8am on a Saturday morning. Lie on the rocks near the river and make a wish on every shooting star you see, there will be a lot. Drink from a glass bottle and pass it around the circle like the cowboy you’re pretending to be. It will be dark, try not to lose the cap. Say whatever you want to say, especially “I’m so happy to be here” and “This might be my favorite place ever.” Hope for bears, friendly bears. Remember that book on Yosemite that you thumbed through in the children’s section of your hometown library and think about how impossibly wonderful it all ends up when you just let it. 



“Dare you take a leap of faith?” (via THOSE PEOPLE COMEDY)

This is still one of the funniest things I’ve ever read. Best part? They’re from Lawrence!

If they can make me laugh this much online, I can’t wait to eventually see them perform in person.

"Dare you take a leap of faith?" Last night, I went to the movie theater to once again experience one of the most satisfying, mind-blowing cinematic adventures of all time. It's the film event that has everybody buzzing, the existential phenomenon that has us questioning the very concept of reality. I'm talking, of course, about the trailer for Charlie St. Cloud. For two minutes and thirty seconds, director Burr Steers immerses us in a beautiful dreamworld where anything is poss … Read More